She Would Have Been 6 Years Old

She would have been 6 years old today. My baby girl. She would have been 6 years old. Juliana... I miss you more than my tears can show. I look at your pictures through out the house and they stop me in my tracks. I stop and I stare and stare and stare... I want you back. I want you back so bad it physically hurts. I want the g-tube, the wheel chair, the standers, the leg braces, the full body casts, the endless hospital visits, the screaming, the crying, the difficulty, the isolation... But how selfish is that? You are free now to run, jump, play, talk, eat, and best of all fall down and get back up with little scraped knees. So today I will hold back my tears and celebrate your freedom. I will celebrate the fact that you were not selfish and gave me 5 wonderful, beautiful years. I will celebrate your birth... that precious day that changed my life forever, for the best! Juliana, I love you! Happy Birthday Smells!