Noah Joseph Soucie 7 Months Old

NOT and I repeat NOT an easy month. Not only did I have to finish battling 1st trimester annoyances, Noah got really sick. He was diagnosed with RSV Bronchitis. NOT FUN. He had a temp of 102.0, he would not eat, he had so much drainage from his nose he couldn't breath. It was awful. By the end of this month he is doing much better though. I would like to also say as sick as he was he just kept on developing and I think had his biggest leap yet in motor skills. Noah has learned how to creep. Only an inch or two but we are on our way.

Noah JosephSoucie 6 Months Old

WOW... 1 Month in our new place and Noah has decided he can sit. My little man never stops amazing me. We have finally started Noah on solid food. We had to wait a little while because he was having some growing problems but we are all set in that department now. I think moving was one of the best things we have done for Noah. And I don't think I mentioned... Grandma lives right next door... It's fabulous. Noah is definitely starting to get a personality he babbles and rolls on the floor and he is just really too cute at this point!

Noah Jospeh Soucie 5 Months Old

Well, I am a couple days late posting and with very good reason. So much has been going on and today is Noah's First of many Christmases. With everything going on, I feel that this month I just may have to update you by number.

1. Im not sure we will ever drive to Missouri again. It was ok but I got a speeding ticket and it seemed that it took 60 hrs to get home. It was a very nice trip however. Oh and we found out a surprise when we got there. You will find out about that later.

2. Ok I guess I have to tell you the surprise as I can't continue my story without blowing it anyways... IM PREGNANT... YES AGAIN. I am going to start to think this is all Juliana playing jokes on me... Thank you baby girl!

3. Kevin and I have decided last minute the best thing for our family is to move to a much bigger place considering our growing family. Sooooooo We signed a new lease a couple weeks ago and we are moving for Christmas.

4.) As for Noah...He is holding his own bottle... So very nice. I can not believe it but he also has two teeth on the bottom. He had a ball today opening his presents. I do however believe he was much more into the paper.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

Noah Joseph Soucie 4 Months Old

Ok... So at four months old my lil Noah is everything I could ever ask for. He is starting to try and hold his own bottle. You would never know his appetite is that of a grown man considering he is scrawny, scrawny, scrawny. This month Noah is over his first cold as well. Noah for sure is NOT a mommas boy. He is so in aw with his daddy that I am the person who just provides those bott's. It's ok no hard feelings. I'll get em! This month Noah will also take his first road trip. Very scary thought. We will be going to Missouri to visit Grammy for thanksgiving... I don't know whats worse...

1.) It's a 22 hr drive

2.) Kevin is also coming (are we there yet syndrome I'm sure will appear)

3.)HELLOOOOO Noah is only 4 months old.

4.) We are so crazy we are bringing home 2 English Bulldogs.

WISH US LUCK!

Noah Joseph Soucie 3 Months Old

Oh where oh where has my little boy gone oh where oh where can he be? These past three months have been so amazing. My little man is growing at a rate of unanticipated speed. This month Noah has been eating on a more regular basis, about every three hours. At night however he has only been getting up once or twice. He is not the cuddle buddy that I wanted but I am beginning to appreciate his Independence... Not much to write this month. Noah wont see the Dr. until 4months so until then... keep smiling!

Noah Joseph Soucie 2 Months Old

Two months down... A life time to go. Noah is getting so big. He looks more and more like his daddy every day. This month has not been an easy one. Noah is quite needy. At this point he still eats every 1-3 hrs., except when we get the privilege of a 5-7 hr. snooze session! His hair is becoming lighter and his eyes are so blue.

Nutrition: Noah eats 1-4 oz every 1-3 hrs. We introduced cereal early because he is hungry all the time. So twice a day he gets 2-3tsp of cereal and a 4 oz bottle in one sitting. Sometimes hes hungry an hour later.

Medically: Noah received his 2nd Hep. B Vaccine on 8/21/2009. It seems that his thrush has just gone away within the last week or so.

Firsts: Noah smiled for the first time on 8/18/2009... Def. was not gas. It was an appropriate response to baby babble! Noah went to the beach for the first time on 8/26/2009. It did not go over so well. 15 Min. and he was done. Ready to go home! He also can now roll from his tummy to his side. He is growing so very fast.

Height and Weight to be announced soon!

Just A Pinch Of Saddness

Today I am flooded with memories of Juliana. I am not sure exactly why. I miss my beautiful angel so very much. I don't have much to say, however I found a poem today that almost put me at peace...

When I See You Smile

I hate when you hear over and over again, "oh he smiled." I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, "It's just gas people. Don't get so excited." Then it happens. That first real smile. He wiggles and he squirms and you look down and there it is all over his face. You can see it in his eyes. He recognizes you. Your voice made that beautiful baby smile. For the first time there is a connection between responsibility and fun. I present to you, Noahs's First Smile! The picture may be blurry but it's there.

Noah Joseph Soucie 1 Month Old

Where did the time go? Noah has been so busy keeping me busy. Highlights of month 1:

1. Breast Feeding- Well... the problem isn't technically Noah. He has a great latch and loves to eat. Problem, I just can't keep up. My lil man loves to eat.

2. Bottle Feeding- In between breast feeding I have to supplement bottles. We started Noah on similac advance. It seems to fill him much more than breast feeding. Bottles are great at night! I think between switching back and forth between breast and bottle, Noah's tummy got all kinds of full with gas. The Dr. switched Noah to Isomil which is soy based. Oh the joy's of projectile vomit. 2 days and I went back to milk based formula. Noah is now on similac sensitive. It works great as a buffer between breast and bottle. We also had to switch bottle nipples to cut down on the amt.of air Noah is getting.

3. Sleeping and Eating- Oh fun, fun, fun! Noah is up every 1-4 hrs. to eat. Usually every 1-2 hrs. He went from 1-2oz per feeding to now 3-4oz per feeding.

4. Medically- Noah has been to the pediatrician 3 times. The first was just for a jaundice check up. My poor baby was just a lil yellow. He is beautifully pale now. Noah then had a blocked tear duct. I had to make sure it was not pink eye. Last but not least, how does a baby get an infected finger? Well leave it to Noah. Treatment was just wash and Abt. ointment. It's still red but we are working on it. He also had 1 Hep B vaccine this month. 1 down 2 to go!

5. Noah's growing very fast. He is 11 lbs. 23 inches. That makes him 90th percentile in weight and 95th percentile in length. He's very smart too! With a head circumference of 15 inches who wouldn't be!

6. Umbilical cord fell off.

7. Tracks objects.

8. Lift's head 90 degrees when on his belly.

When The Feeling Moves You

We have all had that feeling deep down in the pitts of our stomach that says... "I am really hungry!" My gorgeous son has that feeling on a regular basis, and sometimes formula just isn't enough!

Noah's First Tub Bath

Noah's first tub bath is supposed to be fun. Screaming is not in the definition of fun. I still find him adorable even through all the noise and angery faces.

Fun:–noun. something that provides mirth or amusement

Anger:–noun. a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong

Separation

This morning Noah's umbilical cord stump came off. While this is just another milestone, to me it is bitter sweet. The falling off of the cord to me symbolizes an even further separation of myself to what was once actually attached to my being, MY SON. While the tears I'm sure are only hormonal, I can't help the sadness that over whelms me knowing there is no longer a physical attachment to Noah... But the emotional attachment is oh so sweet!

Welcoming A Miracle

WOW... Noah Joseph Soucie: Welcome to the world! 7/17/09, 9:56am, 9lbs 9oz, 20in.

A Gift On The Way

I am going to meet my son today. I pray that as he grows outside of my womb, he becomes the man his father is. I pray he be kind, patient, strong, sympathetic, loving, caring, funny, handsome, outgoing, and much much more.

Today his life will begin outside of me. Juliana watch over and protect this gift I know you had a hand in giving to me.

A Feeling Inside Of Me

A baby, a product of two people who truley love each other. He is everything we have worked so hard for. To know I am carrying a human being inside me, well, it takes my breath away. I am responsible for the outcome. SIGH... My baby is inside of me!

She Would Have Been 6 Years Old

She would have been 6 years old today. My baby girl. She would have been 6 years old. Juliana... I miss you more than my tears can show. I look at your pictures through out the house and they stop me in my tracks. I stop and I stare and stare and stare... I want you back. I want you back so bad it physically hurts. I want the g-tube, the wheel chair, the standers, the leg braces, the full body casts, the endless hospital visits, the screaming, the crying, the difficulty, the isolation... But how selfish is that? You are free now to run, jump, play, talk, eat, and best of all fall down and get back up with little scraped knees. So today I will hold back my tears and celebrate your freedom. I will celebrate the fact that you were not selfish and gave me 5 wonderful, beautiful years. I will celebrate your birth... that precious day that changed my life forever, for the best! Juliana, I love you! Happy Birthday Smells!

Letting Go

God saw you getting tired And a cure was not to be So He put His arms around you And whispered "Come with me."With tearful eyes We watched you And saw you fade away, Although we loved you dearly We could not make you stay. A golden heart stops beating Hard working hands at rest God broke our hearts to prove He only takes the best. It's lonesome here without you We miss you more each day Life doesn't seem the same Since you've gone away. When days are sad and lonely And everything goes wrong We seem to hear you wihsper "Cheer up and carry on." Each time we see your picture You seem to smile and say "Don't cry, I'm in God's keeping We'll meet again some day."

Love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Barbi & Kevin Pre-Marraige

The Cadillac Ranch... When I started nursing school, I had the privilege of meeting two of the best friends any woman could ask for, Alison & Jenn. Jenn and I frequented the Cadillac Ranch when I was free of mommy duties for the weekend. One night while at The Ranch, I tried to hook Jenn up with this pretty good looking guy. (We found out later that he was a pretty good looking KID, lol) Well that kid was there with a few of his older more "legal" friends. I have to be honest, I was not interested in any of them. So I grabbed a seat anywhere. I could have never guessed at that time, I picked the seat right next to my future husband! So we introduced ourselves to one another, and I tried to divert his attention to anything but myself. Well by the end of the night and after trying very hard to ditch him, lol, we some how shared a good night kiss. OK, OK, several goodnight kisses. We exchanged phone numbers and I thought for sure, that that was the end of that guy. Well, Kevin persisted. After a few years of off and on, and not really being ready for eachother, we grew up. Kevin called me one night in November 2007 and I reluctantly picked up the phone. We made plans for a date and well, we married on August 16, 2008. It has been a year of the most wonderfull "ups" and the most tragic "downs". However we have somehow gotten through it all and are living for eachother and the new addition to our family!

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